Procrastination :)

So it's currently 12:30am here and I'm sitting in my room attempting to right five synopses for theology class by tomorrow morning but its not going well. I don't know why I have such a hard sitting down and focusing for long periods of time. I just hate it because I would much rather be talking to someone or hanging out with someone doing something fun. Wouldn't you? My counselor told me he thinks I have ADD which is probably true but that doesn't help much with the focusing for school. So for now I'm going to keep waiting until the last minute to write papers and procrastinate way too much. Hopefully in the future this will get a lot better but we will see :) But I do have to say that at least I'm not stressed out about it like usual so I am making some progress. But besides that life is good and I'm enjoying what I'm doing.

I'm glad I live in Colorado :)

So I went on this retreat today where we went hiking around Evergreen. I'm definitely a person who loves being in nature and just being in the mountains. There is just something about smelling fresh air and realizing that God created everything that I'm seeing. I think that is why I have always loved hiking, backpacking, and sitting in the mountains. It's harder for me to do those things now but I realized today how much I miss them. I get excited when I get to be outside or know that I'm going to do something outdoorsy. Sometimes I just want to move to Leadville and buy a pink/purple house with a big porch and a big garden. I just think it would be fun to live in a small mountain town and experience everything that goes with it. Maybe sometime when I retire hopefully sooner than later :) Anyway, life is going pretty well right now and I like who I'm becoming. Who would have ever thought that I would end up in Littleton, CO going to Denver Seminary? It's funny the way God works but I'm thankful he works the way he does b/c I wouldn't want to be anywhere else but where I am right now!

it's me :)

So I haven't blogged in a while but we were talking about it tonight and I felt I needed to start again. There is a lot going on in my life right now with school, church stuff, and friends but I really am learning and growing more than I have in a long time. I'm constantly surrounded by these amazing people who teach me so much about being myself and following my heart. They are definitely drawing stuff out of me that I didn't even know was there. Sometimes I feel like I"m becoming a different person but in a good way meaning more of who I really am. I'm continually realizing that it is so much easier to just be myself and be who I want to be instead of trying to be what everybody else wants me to be. Why do we try to make everybody happy all the time? It's never going to happen and in the process we lose ourselves and just get stressed out. I think I've lived that way for so long that its hard to change it but it's so great to realize that all we really have to do is be ourselves and people will like us. Anyways, I realize more and more everyday that who I am is somebody who loves the church and ministry and wants to do that for the rest of my life. Don't know exactly what that looks like but I love what I'm doing now and I hope I get to continue for a long time :)